My first day of school. Expectations change today. Both people's impression of me and my expectations of myself. I'm no good at crowds and being in unfamiliar situations. I find it hard to strike up conversation. Maybe because I'm afraid of sounding stupid. But thats just pride isn't it? Burn that!

Reverend Joseph and Reverend Stanley took some time to warm up today. But boy did they speak with power & boldness once they got there. The anointing was on them but I dare say that it isn't turned up all the way yet. My classmates & some of the seniors couldn't sit still after lessons because of their excitement. Why am I not jumping up and down in excitement? Why am I having such muted feelings in school? Could it be that I'm too serious about this place? I am having fun, don't get me wrong. I just feel that there's so much more!!! Maybe because I'm familiar with these topics. But dear God, don't ever let me become complacent. I want more of You!!

I smile to myself when I think of how simple it was to fall into my 'zone' of serving in worship. I volunteered to play the cajons for the worship session. Reverend Cynthia was so eager to try it out. I initially brought the church's cajon home to practice and experiment. Now I get to practice in a real worship setting. I tend to worry that I'm not as good as others. But if God calls you, whats there to worry about?

I'm reminded of sunday service yesterday. It was the last service in the sanctuary before the renovation. I'm not trying to imply anything or undermine anyone but was I the only one who sensed a difference? Coincidence? Most unlikely. Progress and growth comes from the Word. Knowing it and applying it. There were no stunts, no tricks, no fanfare. Just the distinct presence of God in that sanctuary. Flow comes from focusing on God, not by focusing on the flow. Revival comes from focusing on God, not by focusing on revival. The idea is to create a platform for the Holy Spirit to do His thing. Not to try to manipulate people or emotions. You can experience God through feelings and emotions but don't rely on them. God is always with us, the Holy Spirit always in us and Jesus always for us.